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At the Deep End – Chapter 20

August 9, 2014 / naelany / 0 Comments

EPOV

I had to swallow hard a couple of times as I sat listening to Jasper. I couldn’t believe my ears. Of everything he could have wanted to talk about, this wasn’t what I was expecting. At least, not yet. I hadn’t thought he would be ready this soon, since so much had changed for him in a relatively short amount of time. My mouth had gone dry and I had to clear my throat before I could get my voice to work, though I was only able to croak, “When?”

Jasper’s eyes flitted between mine, searching, “Sunday after next for lunch. Will you come?”

As if there were any choice. I could never say no to a request from him and certainly not one requesting my support. I would not let him face his parents alone, even if he’d have Rose there. I squeezed his hands and nodded, “Yes, of course I’ll be there, Jasper. Are you sure you want to do this?” I had to ask, had to be sure he was certain.

At the Deep End – Chapter 19

August 7, 2014 / naelany / 0 Comments

JPOV

Though I hated the thought of leaving Edward, especially after our declarations of love and phenomenal love-making, I knew I needed to go home and study. My parents expected me to be responsible and complete my degree, and I expected no less from myself. So once we’d spent an amazing morning cuddling and making out in bed, we’d roused ourselves, made lunch together and then I had asked Edward to drop me off at home.

“Jasper, is that you?”

Crap! So much for being lucky and slipping into the house unnoticed. I sighed as I closed the door behind me. Edward had already driven off, and I had hoped to just go straight to my room without talking to anyone. No such luck though, as I found myself in the kitchen where my mom was just closing the fridge door, a bottle of water in hand.

At the Deep End – Chapter 18

August 5, 2014 / naelany / 0 Comments

EPOV

It was quiet in the swimming hall. I’d gotten there half an hour earlier than normal, hoping to avoid being in the locker room at the same time as Jasper. I could not be that close to him and not do or say something that might make him uncomfortable; not when there were showers involved at least. It felt as if, now that we’d told one another how we felt, I couldn’t stop wanting to tell him all the time. I’d thought maybe it’d get easier to be around him once I’d told him I loved him, but instead it was proving to be worse in some ways.

I sighed as I let the spray of the water cascade down my back, letting it wash away some of the nerves I was feeling. This was the second class and training session since that night, and the first day had been so hard. Everything in me wanted to hold him close, to touch, to kiss and to tell him ‘I love you’ at every opportunity. Jasper seemed to have difficulty as well, probably doubly so because he was still holding back about coming out. This wasn’t something I could push him on, I knew this already, but damn if it wasn’t biting me in the ass right now. It felt like all I wanted to do was to shout it off the rooftops, to show everyone that Jasper was mine, that he loved me and I him. And I couldn’t. Up until now, I hadn’t allowed myself to think too much on it, but after last weekend, it was as if it was constantly on my mind, and it was frustrating the hell out of me.

At the Deep End – Chapter 17

July 31, 2014 / naelany / 0 Comments

JPOV

I glanced at Edward as he drove us home. The evening had gone by quickly, and I spent the drive home thinking about it. I took his hand in mine, entwining our fingers as I rested them on the console between us. I smiled at him as he looked at me briefly, and squeezed my hand. He was letting me process the evening, and I appreciated it very much. As he turned his attention back to the road, I continued to examine his expression. He appeared more relaxed and much happier than he was before we went to his parents’ place.

I thought back to how nervous I had been and it almost seemed silly now. Esme and Carlisle both gave me a warm welcome into their home. They had done everything to try and make me feel at ease. Esme in particular had been very affectionate and I was looking forward to getting to know her better.

At the Deep End – Chapter 16

July 30, 2014 / naelany / 0 Comments

EPOV

I directed Jasper to a seat at the bar, squeezing his shoulder before taking the one next to him. I watched as he took in the surroundings. I followed his gaze, wondering what he thought of the set up my parents have. They have a state of the art outdoor kitchen on the patio, complete with a small fridge, sink, burners and, of course, a professional grade gas grill. Mom had put the tray of food down on the bar, before taking a seat next to me.

Carlisle poured us each a glass of Pinot Gris before taking his seat. I could tell that Jasper was still a little tense, so I put my hand on the small of his back, rubbing it gently in the hopes of calming his nerves a little. He gave a soft sigh as he smiled at me, mouthing “Thank you.” I winked at him as I grabbed a few grapes, popping one in my mouth.

At the Deep End – Chapter 15

July 27, 2014 / naelany / 0 Comments

JPOV

I sat behind my computer, trying desperately to get some work done before having to leave for swimming class. I drummed my fingers on the table as my thoughts once again strayed from the screen in front of me and the assignment I should be working on. Instead, my thoughts kept drifting back to the night Rose and I made dinner for Edward the week before.

I smiled as I recalled what Rose had said before leaving that night: “You let me know when you want the boy eating out of your lap and we will pull out all the stops.” There was no way in hell I was telling her that her kick-ass cooking skills wouldn’t be necessary anymore. Then again…. if that’s the reaction I get for one of her ‘weekday’ dinners, I wonder just what kind of response I could expect from Edward if Rose were to pull out all the stops. That thought certainly had its merits.

At the Deep End – Chapter 14

July 24, 2014 / naelany / 0 Comments

EPOV

I had a hard time staying focused on work for the rest of the afternoon. I never had gotten around to eating anything during my lunch break, which didn’t help matters either. My mind kept going back to my conversation with Jasper. He wants to go have dinner with my parents. Every time I thought of it, I could feel a goofy grin come to my lips. I was still a little worried about how he really felt about it, and hoped he wouldn’t feel too pressured to come out to his parents or introduce me to them. I knew all too well it had to happen at some point, but also realized that the choice was his to make, not mine. All I could do was be there for him when the time came, no matter the outcome.

For the time being though, I was thrilled that I’d be able to introduce him to my parents. The thought of Esme or Carlisle not liking him never even crossed my mind. I knew they’d be as supportive of him as they were of me. I wanted Jasper to know he would not be alone, and would always have somewhere to go. I was certain of this: they would love him as surely as I did.

At the Deep End – Chapter 13

July 22, 2014 / naelany / 0 Comments

JPOV

I pulled on a pair of Edward’s sweats while he got dressed after our shower. After he left, I went into the kitchen to grab something to drink. I sat down at the table, nursing my glass of orange juice as I let my mind wander. So much had changed for me in the last few days.

Looking back, I realized that the night we kissed in Edward’s car was when things started to click for me. I knew I’d been fighting my feelings, but watching how it hurt him, and knowing that I was the only one who could stop that hurt, made it clear to me that I had to try to get past my own fears. Rose was right. I was worrying about the wrong things. Although I still wasn’t sure about how to tell mom and dad.

At the Deep End – Chapter 12

July 19, 2014 / naelany / 0 Comments

EPOV

I gazed over at Jasper as he slept soundly next to me. He looked so peaceful. My hands itched to caress him, but I remained still, just taking in his every feature. It was still dark out, but I was wide awake. I knew I wouldn’t be able to fall back asleep. I still couldn’t believe that he was here, in my bed, even if he has slept here a few times now since that first time last week. I smiled softly as I thought back to that night.

We had watched ‘The Court Jester’ after dinner. It turned out to be a favorite of both of ours. I had a hard time concentrating on it though, with Jasper right next to me. I had my arm around his shoulder, and the sense of peace the evening had given me made my heart swell. I wished we could spend every night like this. Just us, enjoying each other’s company. It had felt so good to make dinner together earlier.

At the Deep End – Chapter 11

July 17, 2014 / naelany / 0 Comments

JPOV

I lay in bed, my arms under my head as I stared up at the ceiling. My mind kept going over what happened today, especially the game and Rosalie meeting Edward – I was so glad that it had gone well! During dinner with Mom and Dad, Rose hadn’t stopped talking about Emmett, for which I was actually grateful. I had been a little preoccupied, to say the least.

Edward had been at the forefront of my thoughts all through dinner. I kept wondering about how it would be for him to meet my parents. I think Rosalie sensed this and purposely kept their attention away from me.

It felt like dinner lasted for hours, but we finally got home, and I was able to excuse myself. I went to my room, switched on my computer and tried to go through my emails, but I still wasn’t able to concentrate.

Tag: At the Deep End (Page 3 of 5)

At the Deep End – Chapter 20

At the Deep End – Chapter 19

At the Deep End – Chapter 18

At the Deep End – Chapter 17

At the Deep End – Chapter 16

At the Deep End – Chapter 15

At the Deep End – Chapter 14

At the Deep End – Chapter 13

At the Deep End – Chapter 12

At the Deep End – Chapter 11

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